Selfish!

Sometimes I tire of being the one who advises and is there for everyone else. I do love being able to help my friends, and it is a nice thing when people confide in me but the thing that sucks is when I have a problem, I may attempt to complain to someone else but it ends up going ignored and dismissed. I understand that many other people often don't know what to say or feel awkward in that kind of situation but argh!

I've decided to be a little bit selfish and take some time out from listening to everyone else because I really need to sort my own head out.

I haven't been in college for the past two days, partly because of cramp (lush) and the headaches that accompany said cramp (previously migraines, but medication put a stop to those bad boys) but also because, well, I just feel dreadful in myself. As a person, I have a tendency to mope and get buried in my problems, and I find it really hard to get out of bad moods. Often, I'd rely on other people to pull me out of it but, as I've said, other people aren't really being much help right now. This isn't technically their fault, I know, and it does sound petty for me to be whining about it but, maaaan, just for once I want someone to let me vent and be angry and sad and not have to constantly hold it together because that doesn't work, as I've learned. If you keep it all pushed inside, you blow up. So, instead of having my friends as, I don't know, a bomb defuser, I'm going to use this blog. Yeah, I realise I initially wanted this for talking about my radio antics (which will happen, I promise, but podcast plans have been put on hold considering I have two major projects going on at the same time) but I really need to talk about my feelings, cringe, and if it's not to someone, it's got to be to someTHING. So yes, unfortunate readers, the next few blogs will probably just me being hugely upset or angry or both. Enjoy.